I wish I could give him everything he wants
You see by all of these things he get haunts
I would give him all of my happiness
Because to me his happiness is so gorgeous

I would rather today be my last day
Then to see his sadness come into play
I would run over a mile
Just to see him smile

I would rather take all of his pain
I would rather go insane
Then to see him cry
I wish I could set him free and together we fly

Now I wish I could send his sadness away in a letter
Just to make his life a tiny bit better
Now I never want to loose him
Because without him don’t know what I would do

Bie,

I do not want to loose you any way
And I hope that my death is many many years away

This is a very special entry. Just to drop a line..

After 3 years 5 months, I’m dating someone. I’m happy. I know things will get complicated. But a dear friend of mine said “go with the flow” –exactly what I’m doing.

It’s been a while since I post a new entry. Been tremendously busy (other than the fact that I’ve been so bloody lazy!).

As usual, I have gazillion stuff to write. There have been few changes in my life. I have been pretty active in communicating with people that I know from the net. I got to know little new acquaintance. They have been pretty interesting.

I do find it amusing. I was pretty hooked up on sms during festive period (costs me a bomb!)  Just communicating..  I am not looking forward to anything at all. It’s just fun and im just doing what I feel like doing.

Well, that’s a bit of something I can write for now on. Enuff fo now. Will write more soon.

This sudden entry is actually dedicated to my dear friend, who recently deleted his wonderful blog. It was a hot and happening blog. (yeah.. I visit his blog more than I go to my own!)

Somehow he just got tired of everything and decided to make that decision. Well, I respect his decision. Hope you are ok. Gonna miss visiting your blog Mr Blue.

Lots of love,

Prince Vamp

Inch by inch

I got this msg from a friend. Not sure about it, we'll see!

Planet Mars will be the brightest in the night sky starting August. It will look as large as the full moon to the naked eye. This will cultimate on Aug. 27 when Mars comes within 34.65M miles of earth. Be sure to watch the sky on Aug. 27 12:30 am. It will look like the earth has 2 moons. The next time Mars may come this close is in 2287. Share this with ur friends as NO ONE ALIVE TODAY will ever see it again...

When most of people in Klang valley is suffocated with terrible weather condition, I am suffocated with myself. The lifestyle I’m living is slaughter me. I’m living with a person who loves me. But I don’t feel the same way. Would appreciate if our relationship is just housemates.

Im a loner. I like being alone. Im happy with myself. And I don’t want to be treated like I belong to certain individual. I favor the company of acquaintances… I do. But on top of all, I treasure the company of myself and the feeling of freedom more. I don’t want commitment because I don’t need to have it.

But somehow I cant express it. I don’t like sweet talks. I hate touches and hugs. I have expressed all of this before. But the info doesn’t seem to reach. I was as direct as I could. But it doesn’t work.

How do I express it without insulting the person? I have to say it because I am suffocated. This haze is bad, but my suffocation is grave.

I close my eyes,
Think maybe if I pray hard enough...
Everything will be okay.
I'll open my eyes,
Maybe if I wish hard enough...
The last three years will just disappear,
Vanished from my mind.
Me laughing just like before.
Everything like its always been,
Not all this fear and pain,
Wish I could ever be the same.
As I have always been.
Being stupid and all
Now makes Me dying inside out.

I have so many possessions to write here. So many topics. So many complains. So many questions.  But I just don’t have the right time to put it in words and paste it here. I need a pleasant time on my own. Where I can just express my thoughts. It’s the only way that can me unload this burden..

I can’t speak up with the people who are close to me. I can’t tell my secret to the people who are dear to me. And I can’t raise my feelings, my thoughts and my voice to the people who love me.

This short note is just a glimpse of  what to come…. Soon.

Why are you unnecessarily worrying?

Whom do you fear?

Soul is neither born nor does it dies.

What has happened has happened for the best.

What is happening is happening for the best.

What will happen will happen for the best.

Do not brood over the past.

Do not worry about the future.

THE PRESENT IS ON.

What have you lost, that you are weeping?

What have you brought, that you have lost?

What have you made, that has been destroyed?

You brought nothing.

What you have, you got from here.

What you took, you took from here.

What you gave, you gave unto this universe.

You have come empty handed and shall go

Empty handed. What is yours today was

Somebody else's in the past and will be

somebody else's in the future.

You think it is yours and are deeply

engrossed in it.

"CHANGES"  ARE  THE LAW OF LIFE.